Thursday, May 25, 2006
What am i doing...
what have i been doing .. i been thinking.. not for this moment but from the far time since i graduated from poly. it had been a year.. so wat have i done for myself this far? sometime i jus wonder why am i wasting my life away when i could have achieved something over this period of time. but wasting this time dwelling into memories that don't seems to bring me to anywhere.
how life shld be. sometime i jus believe am in the mist of life. not up and not down. am no where and wonderin in life. where have the person leading me went to? where hav you been to ? someone who could be the moral support and reason for moving on. still am searching where have you been... flowing further and further away from the sight of mine.
i dun have time to waste and things which can't bring back. i dun think i have the effort to bring back to what is should be. sometimes mayb i jus have to admit tt am defeated by destiny that i lost. jus bcos there's nthing i could do to alter any present.
past is a journey that i can't rewind back.. present is something that am in a mist in. while future is a maze to me.
am i doing wat am i suppose to be? or am jus being someone who i don't wan to be...
will following my heart solve eerything? or facing the fact is the only solution to my life off from those burden.
when will everything be mine after one big round. or its nothing after all and i will be standing here alone after so much and a long way i came across. and i have nothing left not even myself.
i lost to destiny and i lost the biggest chip which is my life. a life of mine.
what have i been doing .. i been thinking.. not for this moment but from the far time since i graduated from poly. it had been a year.. so wat have i done for myself this far? sometime i jus wonder why am i wasting my life away when i could have achieved something over this period of time. but wasting this time dwelling into memories that don't seems to bring me to anywhere.
how life shld be. sometime i jus believe am in the mist of life. not up and not down. am no where and wonderin in life. where have the person leading me went to? where hav you been to ? someone who could be the moral support and reason for moving on. still am searching where have you been... flowing further and further away from the sight of mine.
i dun have time to waste and things which can't bring back. i dun think i have the effort to bring back to what is should be. sometimes mayb i jus have to admit tt am defeated by destiny that i lost. jus bcos there's nthing i could do to alter any present.
past is a journey that i can't rewind back.. present is something that am in a mist in. while future is a maze to me.
am i doing wat am i suppose to be? or am jus being someone who i don't wan to be...
will following my heart solve eerything? or facing the fact is the only solution to my life off from those burden.
when will everything be mine after one big round. or its nothing after all and i will be standing here alone after so much and a long way i came across. and i have nothing left not even myself.
i lost to destiny and i lost the biggest chip which is my life. a life of mine.
what we could have been, 25.5.06.
