Friday, August 17, 2007
what's going on...
sunday.12/8..dwelling in my wil but its making me so sick dat i decided to give up and leave it aside. I hate things that keep making me unhappy. Drove out to pick up Shirley to bring her for a Bedok Curry Lunch and picked up Bestie Jane @pasir ris for the Curry Feast too =). They said am really hardworking all the wy from my place to pasir ris then head to the curry. I dunno why but i got the strong urge to breathe some fresh air. it's killing me for what had been happening.
went to pick up nana at her work place, which is parkway parade and i have to comment dat wulu places i have never ever drive there before. and am really surprise by myself dat i actually agreed to pick her up haha. well, dat's my buddy my one of the few buddy left so doing this is all fine to me. as long as my buddy is good am good =). nana had a long car ride with me. headed home first andthen dad drops us at nana's place mac. as usual we had chats be it silly or serious.i love my buddy company thou we seldom meet. i love her still. deep inside me she's always close to my heart. nana told me... i shldn't have regrets in life. and i seek der advice. i dun wish for regret so i can only do wat i can do and dat's the maximum i would.
monday.13/8.. dragged by my dad to drive my bro to camp, my bro who totally forgot about her reservist date. Drove him der earlry in the morning and went to school to submit my report. intended to submit in the late noon and probably pick up fen on the way to submit but then thanks to my lvoely bro who makes me wake up so early when i slp at 5am and wake up in less than 5hrs time. Did some editing in the school library but i jus can't stand dat place i can't stand my presence in school the whole environment is so unfamiliar to me and i start thinking if this is where i belong. then headed to meet shirley again. brought her to Botak Jones for lunch.. i been having a very very bad headahce dat's killing me. really killing me. am so dead tired. so so tired and my head never stop spinning. din get to slp then ang and jane asked me out for a show at cathay, well tried to reject but i think it fail as usual rejecting pp is not my forte and being soft hearted is my fatal. watched Flash Point. not too bad. had headache!! really killing me!!! but still i can't slp thanks to the coffee bean caramel i had with shirley at bishan. =( got help me .
Tuesday.. 14/8
work work.. drink after work with Bestie Jane... headed home
Wed 15/8. woke up early for school, thanks dad for the ride. and yesh i reached school damn early like i never did. class is so so but am happy for once at least. thanks to fen. tons of notes. lost in project. time is running out.
no place to go so accompanied sandra to make her and dat takes up near 3hrs. but its okie at least i got company like her. if not i hav no idea where to go. thanks Sandra..
San headed to meet Mel so am alone. headed to starbucks and slack. things just start flowing into my mind. be it work, life, school and problems. i can't handle it well. ang called and he came dwn to meet me for awhile. he wanted to buy phone but too bad he din. he went back to work .
and i headed for my dinner @ secret Gardern. fine dining.. expensive meal which tastes so so . 2 person 150 min. this is insane. and ir elaise i hate fine dining. stupid. KTv sessin for the night. am dead tired rushed home to slp.
thur 16/8. tired is the word that i always say all these while. work as usual. am really so tired. boght my mc book suppose to read up. but then still din cos am too tired. indulging into Chris PSP 7 wonders. the more i played with it the more tired i'm. hai. Bestie jane dropped by after her day out and bout e-donuts.. i dun even note der's such donuts. was very full due to dinner but for the sake of donuts i risked out my life. thank bestie the donuts. cos i love donuts!! they make me happy.
catched licensed to wed with chris, jane and ang. quite okie. if got nothing to do can go and watch.
jus saw the project distribution. and it felt like a large load on my shoudler. why is the distribution like this . how am i gonna handle the dateline when i hav so many thing son hand and coordinating with someone i dun even really noe.
why force me to do things i dun like.
counting to the trip but am not excited at all. cos i have tons of load on me. and it amkes me really really UNHAPPY. jane said i look sad today which i din realise why. but it felt like as usual.. things ain't going according to my way and its always aginst me.
guess.. this entire week.. only fen action makes me smile for dat moment. and not forgetting Jane's company.
p.s: Congras to my bestie Jane.. you're employed!!!
on one hand one promised had been make.and i felt so much lighter . while on the other hand. i guess it just have to be that way nthing is gonna revive anything. i did my part i guess and dat's all i would do nothing more than dat. believe it or not even if one day things turn out oppositely. i will be proud ot say.. i have no regrets. bcos i tried holding back. and if it dun then i will.. just let it go...
sunday.12/8..dwelling in my wil but its making me so sick dat i decided to give up and leave it aside. I hate things that keep making me unhappy. Drove out to pick up Shirley to bring her for a Bedok Curry Lunch and picked up Bestie Jane @pasir ris for the Curry Feast too =). They said am really hardworking all the wy from my place to pasir ris then head to the curry. I dunno why but i got the strong urge to breathe some fresh air. it's killing me for what had been happening.
went to pick up nana at her work place, which is parkway parade and i have to comment dat wulu places i have never ever drive there before. and am really surprise by myself dat i actually agreed to pick her up haha. well, dat's my buddy my one of the few buddy left so doing this is all fine to me. as long as my buddy is good am good =). nana had a long car ride with me. headed home first andthen dad drops us at nana's place mac. as usual we had chats be it silly or serious.i love my buddy company thou we seldom meet. i love her still. deep inside me she's always close to my heart. nana told me... i shldn't have regrets in life. and i seek der advice. i dun wish for regret so i can only do wat i can do and dat's the maximum i would.
monday.13/8.. dragged by my dad to drive my bro to camp, my bro who totally forgot about her reservist date. Drove him der earlry in the morning and went to school to submit my report. intended to submit in the late noon and probably pick up fen on the way to submit but then thanks to my lvoely bro who makes me wake up so early when i slp at 5am and wake up in less than 5hrs time. Did some editing in the school library but i jus can't stand dat place i can't stand my presence in school the whole environment is so unfamiliar to me and i start thinking if this is where i belong. then headed to meet shirley again. brought her to Botak Jones for lunch.. i been having a very very bad headahce dat's killing me. really killing me. am so dead tired. so so tired and my head never stop spinning. din get to slp then ang and jane asked me out for a show at cathay, well tried to reject but i think it fail as usual rejecting pp is not my forte and being soft hearted is my fatal. watched Flash Point. not too bad. had headache!! really killing me!!! but still i can't slp thanks to the coffee bean caramel i had with shirley at bishan. =( got help me .
Tuesday.. 14/8
work work.. drink after work with Bestie Jane... headed home
Wed 15/8. woke up early for school, thanks dad for the ride. and yesh i reached school damn early like i never did. class is so so but am happy for once at least. thanks to fen. tons of notes. lost in project. time is running out.
no place to go so accompanied sandra to make her and dat takes up near 3hrs. but its okie at least i got company like her. if not i hav no idea where to go. thanks Sandra..
San headed to meet Mel so am alone. headed to starbucks and slack. things just start flowing into my mind. be it work, life, school and problems. i can't handle it well. ang called and he came dwn to meet me for awhile. he wanted to buy phone but too bad he din. he went back to work .
and i headed for my dinner @ secret Gardern. fine dining.. expensive meal which tastes so so . 2 person 150 min. this is insane. and ir elaise i hate fine dining. stupid. KTv sessin for the night. am dead tired rushed home to slp.
thur 16/8. tired is the word that i always say all these while. work as usual. am really so tired. boght my mc book suppose to read up. but then still din cos am too tired. indulging into Chris PSP 7 wonders. the more i played with it the more tired i'm. hai. Bestie jane dropped by after her day out and bout e-donuts.. i dun even note der's such donuts. was very full due to dinner but for the sake of donuts i risked out my life. thank bestie the donuts. cos i love donuts!! they make me happy.
catched licensed to wed with chris, jane and ang. quite okie. if got nothing to do can go and watch.
jus saw the project distribution. and it felt like a large load on my shoudler. why is the distribution like this . how am i gonna handle the dateline when i hav so many thing son hand and coordinating with someone i dun even really noe.
why force me to do things i dun like.
counting to the trip but am not excited at all. cos i have tons of load on me. and it amkes me really really UNHAPPY. jane said i look sad today which i din realise why. but it felt like as usual.. things ain't going according to my way and its always aginst me.
guess.. this entire week.. only fen action makes me smile for dat moment. and not forgetting Jane's company.
p.s: Congras to my bestie Jane.. you're employed!!!
on one hand one promised had been make.and i felt so much lighter . while on the other hand. i guess it just have to be that way nthing is gonna revive anything. i did my part i guess and dat's all i would do nothing more than dat. believe it or not even if one day things turn out oppositely. i will be proud ot say.. i have no regrets. bcos i tried holding back. and if it dun then i will.. just let it go...
what we could have been, 17.8.07.
