Friday, September 07, 2007
back to blog...
Well, another week passed by again ans soon we are approaching mid of september with a glance.
Last Sunday, woke up really early for Dim Sum @ Red Star with Ang and Janie and we really had a full breakfast. Headed to Comex 2007, its the last day and yes with my "Shun You" around i almost make a impluse purchase of buying a new camera for myself. But thanks to the indecisiveness between canon ixus70 and Sony T20 and T100 that stopped me from bringing them home. And safe for this time as i leave the comex safely without any wallet damange. =) Went to marina sq to shop, almost manage to convince Ang to buy something but well he have good determination and so we failed. Headed for dinner at marina south, yesh that oily place that i hated the most. Janie was telling me that the last time she went over there was with me and Fen. Then i accidently came across my update, on the same date 2 Sep we were der exactly a year ago having steamboat. The most coincidence thing is i went to comex with fen last yr as well before we head for steamboat, its jus repeating of histroy when you least notice it. Home sweet home pretty early before Ang's car turns into pumpkin.
Monday, 3/9/07, work as usual but don't quite remember what happened.
Tuesday, 4/9/07, work as usual met a few chatty customer that ended up chatting with me. Some are pretty interested in when i graduate and what i want to be. Some came offering me golf event part time job which i have no time for. But to say, the golf event job is definitely a good form and alternative to meet my potential employers especially there's where the 'Big Shot" hangs around and most importantly those "private bankers".
Wednesday, wanted to go for investment class but was really too tired to do so. Went out for BK breakfast with Shirley. Then headed to study awhile but ain't too help i guess. I guess am becoming more andmore restless when it comes to dealing with books. I had coffee at starbucks but the ultimate power of the book "managing change" still never fail to make me feel sleepy. So i decided to give up headed home to rest but who knows on the way pass by cold storage ended up buying junk food that cost up to near 40bucks. I can't believe it !! Went back home, hoping to read a lil more of the notes but then ended up i took a nap that turns out to be more like a slp. In the end, i woke up at 8pm and the mood is totally slacking mode. mind totally shut off.
Thursday, woke up and study abit but then... mind jus not working. I faced the book the entire whole day but it seems like nothing get into my mind. So i decided to give up and leave it aside. i choose to give up for the first time.
Friday, suppose to wake up at 6am to read my unfinished notes but i failed to cos am jus to restless and lazy to wake up. ended up 7.30 i got myself stiing up right finally. So not time to study but to prepare and be ready for school. THe paper is really wah wah question question for the first time. in my life i step into a exam hall with no expectation and left the hall with no disappointment. I guess its because in the first place i hold no expectation that's why when i screw up the paper i felt nothing about it. For the first time, i admit i dunn how to do the paper at all. Despite i wrote a booklet of it but i have no idea what i've been writing, probably a ton of nonsenses for the first time. I just simply feel irritated staying another moment in the hall, and so i decided to leave even not completing it. i admit i gave away the 25% which i intended to in the first place. am losing my faith in school and i dun understand why it have to take only when i step into the last semester. Am angry not bcos i din noe how to do the paper but am angry with myself that i din even put in effort to ensure myself better. am blaming no one esle but myself for everything i did and put myself at this ridiculous stage. for what had been done i blame no one from the start till the end. it was all about me. i was the root of everything. piss
"i enter with no expectation and left with no disappointment" - for the first ime i experience life with no expectation and life is so much lighter this way.
Well, another week passed by again ans soon we are approaching mid of september with a glance.
Last Sunday, woke up really early for Dim Sum @ Red Star with Ang and Janie and we really had a full breakfast. Headed to Comex 2007, its the last day and yes with my "Shun You" around i almost make a impluse purchase of buying a new camera for myself. But thanks to the indecisiveness between canon ixus70 and Sony T20 and T100 that stopped me from bringing them home. And safe for this time as i leave the comex safely without any wallet damange. =) Went to marina sq to shop, almost manage to convince Ang to buy something but well he have good determination and so we failed. Headed for dinner at marina south, yesh that oily place that i hated the most. Janie was telling me that the last time she went over there was with me and Fen. Then i accidently came across my update, on the same date 2 Sep we were der exactly a year ago having steamboat. The most coincidence thing is i went to comex with fen last yr as well before we head for steamboat, its jus repeating of histroy when you least notice it. Home sweet home pretty early before Ang's car turns into pumpkin.
Monday, 3/9/07, work as usual but don't quite remember what happened.
Tuesday, 4/9/07, work as usual met a few chatty customer that ended up chatting with me. Some are pretty interested in when i graduate and what i want to be. Some came offering me golf event part time job which i have no time for. But to say, the golf event job is definitely a good form and alternative to meet my potential employers especially there's where the 'Big Shot" hangs around and most importantly those "private bankers".
Wednesday, wanted to go for investment class but was really too tired to do so. Went out for BK breakfast with Shirley. Then headed to study awhile but ain't too help i guess. I guess am becoming more andmore restless when it comes to dealing with books. I had coffee at starbucks but the ultimate power of the book "managing change" still never fail to make me feel sleepy. So i decided to give up headed home to rest but who knows on the way pass by cold storage ended up buying junk food that cost up to near 40bucks. I can't believe it !! Went back home, hoping to read a lil more of the notes but then ended up i took a nap that turns out to be more like a slp. In the end, i woke up at 8pm and the mood is totally slacking mode. mind totally shut off.
When am wasting my life away thinking about things that i shouldn't.
part of the junk food.
part of the junk food.
Thursday, woke up and study abit but then... mind jus not working. I faced the book the entire whole day but it seems like nothing get into my mind. So i decided to give up and leave it aside. i choose to give up for the first time.
let my specs do the reading instead.
Friday, suppose to wake up at 6am to read my unfinished notes but i failed to cos am jus to restless and lazy to wake up. ended up 7.30 i got myself stiing up right finally. So not time to study but to prepare and be ready for school. THe paper is really wah wah question question for the first time. in my life i step into a exam hall with no expectation and left the hall with no disappointment. I guess its because in the first place i hold no expectation that's why when i screw up the paper i felt nothing about it. For the first time, i admit i dunn how to do the paper at all. Despite i wrote a booklet of it but i have no idea what i've been writing, probably a ton of nonsenses for the first time. I just simply feel irritated staying another moment in the hall, and so i decided to leave even not completing it. i admit i gave away the 25% which i intended to in the first place. am losing my faith in school and i dun understand why it have to take only when i step into the last semester. Am angry not bcos i din noe how to do the paper but am angry with myself that i din even put in effort to ensure myself better. am blaming no one esle but myself for everything i did and put myself at this ridiculous stage. for what had been done i blame no one from the start till the end. it was all about me. i was the root of everything. piss
"i enter with no expectation and left with no disappointment" - for the first ime i experience life with no expectation and life is so much lighter this way.
what we could have been, 7.9.07.
