Saturday, September 22, 2007
A Trip...
Am looking forward for 2 trips at the end of the year. Be it what the final graduation result would be.
I need a place, a good place that can let me stop my foot steps for a moment and think about what life had been all these well. I guess it should also be time, to decide what should to be left behind and what direction i should move towards to.
I have to admit life haven been too well these few years or rather should i say, these few years had been the worst i ever had. these entire 5 years was a tragic. Every single year i start losing someone who prior a special place in my heart. No pain no gain ? i have no idea but am pretty immune to losing someone every now and then. i start to realise am getting more cold towards life. I dun believe in happiness existance.
I have been busy looking back at the memories that was once left for me and yet i neglected to look forwards or even side with what i have left with. The neglect had made me lose more than what you all could imagine.
People always think that my life is good, and i lead a life that many is asking for. Don't have to worry about money and stuffs is equal to living good? but i guess people have yet to the see the other side of my life, the side of things that i lose that no one notice. i always feel that i lose more than what i gain.
Life is divided into serveral phase, i been thrgh the happiness time, the no worries days and sadness that occupy the whole mind. i have no idea what future takes, but i can only say right now this moment, am not holding on to anything that wasn't meant to be. Cos i dun believe destiny take 2. bcos der's somethings once over it will always be a full stop and dat's when a chapter have to be close. i used to tot some chapters will keep on writing one after another book but then i realise .. human can never be too sure about what will happen in life. bcos next moment everything chnges.
Am not holding on bcos i feel tired looking at the past. and bcos i seek no courage to look back and realise how things had changed to realise what gone wrong. somethings are too late to mend and it will never be mend. i accept wat destiny have for me, and am not going to do anything to chng it. i admit am defeated byt the thing call.. god's plan.
"meeting you wasn't by chance, just that destiny make a uturn instead of going forward"
Am looking forward for 2 trips at the end of the year. Be it what the final graduation result would be.
I need a place, a good place that can let me stop my foot steps for a moment and think about what life had been all these well. I guess it should also be time, to decide what should to be left behind and what direction i should move towards to.
I have to admit life haven been too well these few years or rather should i say, these few years had been the worst i ever had. these entire 5 years was a tragic. Every single year i start losing someone who prior a special place in my heart. No pain no gain ? i have no idea but am pretty immune to losing someone every now and then. i start to realise am getting more cold towards life. I dun believe in happiness existance.
I have been busy looking back at the memories that was once left for me and yet i neglected to look forwards or even side with what i have left with. The neglect had made me lose more than what you all could imagine.
People always think that my life is good, and i lead a life that many is asking for. Don't have to worry about money and stuffs is equal to living good? but i guess people have yet to the see the other side of my life, the side of things that i lose that no one notice. i always feel that i lose more than what i gain.
Life is divided into serveral phase, i been thrgh the happiness time, the no worries days and sadness that occupy the whole mind. i have no idea what future takes, but i can only say right now this moment, am not holding on to anything that wasn't meant to be. Cos i dun believe destiny take 2. bcos der's somethings once over it will always be a full stop and dat's when a chapter have to be close. i used to tot some chapters will keep on writing one after another book but then i realise .. human can never be too sure about what will happen in life. bcos next moment everything chnges.
Am not holding on bcos i feel tired looking at the past. and bcos i seek no courage to look back and realise how things had changed to realise what gone wrong. somethings are too late to mend and it will never be mend. i accept wat destiny have for me, and am not going to do anything to chng it. i admit am defeated byt the thing call.. god's plan.
"meeting you wasn't by chance, just that destiny make a uturn instead of going forward"
what we could have been, 22.9.07.
