Thursday, January 03, 2008
It's another year
Without fail when it comes to the end of the year and the brand new chapter starts. And we will start reflecting what we did for the entire year, and of cos i will as well.
I start reflecting back how 2007 have been, i would say its never any better than 2006 or any previous years. In 2007, i been through more than what i thought i would. I lose more than what am suppose to and of cos gain in certain ways. But the lost definitely takes up bigger portion of my life.
I have been busy dealing with emotions for the past few years, till recent months i admit that i don't wish to carry on the same routine being stucked in btw bear and unbear. I choosed the path that i always would be better for everyone, i choose to bear the pain and say goodbye to something that would probably matters to me the most in life this far.
Reflecting it back, is that the right step ? or its jus another mistake? i wonder hard ~~ Starting in the dark gray sky with cold wind blowing, sadness arise from no where and things that i shouldn't be thinking comes all. I know what am missing badly and yet i could only stare into the sky and pray hard you will be fine. I hope my leave will lighten your life, and i hope it worth off some day.When i turn back and look back at this pt of life, i will be convince that i did the right thing even if am in mist now.
Truly undertand some things happens and its have to be that way. Am exhuasted as well, i tried holding it tight and yet it just slipped away through the fingers. Nana always say, as long as i did my utmost, i should be alright. Or other words, there' won't be chance that i would regret. I hope it will be the way she said. I hope...
2008 new year new resolution, if to foresake the past and walk on to the future. I think i look back on the past too frequently and its killing me at times. Mayb this should be a good new start, it won't heal so fast but then i know one day it will all be fine. And i will be happier and stronger than before.
Of cos, other than praying for myself . i hope for the person i cared the most once will be blessed with happiness. i really hoped my decision is right to lighten your life, as promised when am all fine, maybe one day i will appear right at your door step and say hi to you. But if that day never come, believe me no matter what you will always be remembered, just like i promised. "i'll remember you in my own ways"
"May happiness always be with you no matter where you're"
2008, nothing else but my career will be my focus. it will be the highest priority in life right now, so spare me from those emotional games of frenship and relationship. Am tired maintaining and building all sort of ships. when one day all these will sink and leave a mark in my life. So spare my emotional cells, they will be well kept for the next few years. i Swear there won't be another tear drop from me, i will bear it till the end.
Without fail when it comes to the end of the year and the brand new chapter starts. And we will start reflecting what we did for the entire year, and of cos i will as well.
I start reflecting back how 2007 have been, i would say its never any better than 2006 or any previous years. In 2007, i been through more than what i thought i would. I lose more than what am suppose to and of cos gain in certain ways. But the lost definitely takes up bigger portion of my life.
I have been busy dealing with emotions for the past few years, till recent months i admit that i don't wish to carry on the same routine being stucked in btw bear and unbear. I choosed the path that i always would be better for everyone, i choose to bear the pain and say goodbye to something that would probably matters to me the most in life this far.
Reflecting it back, is that the right step ? or its jus another mistake? i wonder hard ~~ Starting in the dark gray sky with cold wind blowing, sadness arise from no where and things that i shouldn't be thinking comes all. I know what am missing badly and yet i could only stare into the sky and pray hard you will be fine. I hope my leave will lighten your life, and i hope it worth off some day.When i turn back and look back at this pt of life, i will be convince that i did the right thing even if am in mist now.
Truly undertand some things happens and its have to be that way. Am exhuasted as well, i tried holding it tight and yet it just slipped away through the fingers. Nana always say, as long as i did my utmost, i should be alright. Or other words, there' won't be chance that i would regret. I hope it will be the way she said. I hope...
2008 new year new resolution, if to foresake the past and walk on to the future. I think i look back on the past too frequently and its killing me at times. Mayb this should be a good new start, it won't heal so fast but then i know one day it will all be fine. And i will be happier and stronger than before.
Of cos, other than praying for myself . i hope for the person i cared the most once will be blessed with happiness. i really hoped my decision is right to lighten your life, as promised when am all fine, maybe one day i will appear right at your door step and say hi to you. But if that day never come, believe me no matter what you will always be remembered, just like i promised. "i'll remember you in my own ways"
"May happiness always be with you no matter where you're"
2008, nothing else but my career will be my focus. it will be the highest priority in life right now, so spare me from those emotional games of frenship and relationship. Am tired maintaining and building all sort of ships. when one day all these will sink and leave a mark in my life. So spare my emotional cells, they will be well kept for the next few years. i Swear there won't be another tear drop from me, i will bear it till the end.
what we could have been, 3.1.08.
